"God's goodness doesn't change based on the condition of my circumstances."
God gave me this phrase as I was thinking about loss and tragedy that we experience in this life. I felt like this little quote could be a powerful reminder to not doubt God's goodness. I put together three color-ways to offer to you in case it might help you too.
I have so much to say...I shared a little of this on my story today but wanted to share it here a little more in depth. I always dread the last week of August because it’s the anniversary of my mother’s passing as well as her birthday. There’s an amount of gritting my teeth and staying busy so I don’t think too deeply or let myself go to that sad, dark place. But this week has been different because someone I’ve admired greatly from afar is experiencing a deep, devastating personal tragedy. And I’ve prayed and wept for her and her family more than I’ve prayed or wept for any stranger before. As they seek God for a miracle for this precious little girl, and the large community around them joins in, in the back of my mind, I’ve had these...thoughts. Negative thoughts about prayer. About how God chooses to answer. About His willingness to give us what we desperately seek. I’m a huge advocate for the power of prayer. I KNOW, I know prayer works. I KNOW He hears. I KNOW He is able to do exceedingly immeasurably beyond all we can ask or imagine. But there’s a little niggle in the back of my brain that says, “He won’t.” Because of my past experience when my mom was sick. Because we prayed and fasted and sought God for a miracle healing. And I know many of you have had trauma in your lives, deep loss that you have no words to express. But I so wanted her to see her first grandbaby. I so wanted to experience motherhood with her. I wanted to see her and my dad grow old together. But I didn’t get that answer. So my mind is in conflict today about prayer and how God answers. But I rest in the PROMISES in God’s Word. It’s all we have when the circumstances of life are too much. He is ABLE - just like with the fiery furnace He was able (Daniel 3). And I can tell you for a fact that the goodness of God is not dependent on the condition of my circumstances. We like to say that God is good when good things happen. But God is just as good when bad things happen too. We cannot understand the sovereign plans of God, but we can still find rest in His love and His comfort and His peace.